Castles in the Sky

Just a poem I wrote for school awhile back. Comment on what you think.

Lying inside layers of my mind
Slither ominous shadows that never blind
Where light is contorted, warped, and bends
Binding around something I must defend

Peer deeper beneath, into the surface
and discover all the empty spaces
Where all of my emotions should be
But you robbed me of my humanity

I retreat into a restless slumber at night
Tossing myself into a lunatic’s lament I fight
Back the insanity of rationality
Trying to keep intact my sanctity

Almost comatose I lay on a loveless love seat
Barely fitting so I can forget at the least
That I’m going to sleep myself, alone
Without another warm body to hold as my own

Dig, I dare you, down to the chain of memories
To a time when my fantasies were once a reality
When every evening, I’d ignorantly sleep
Sleep, Perchance to dream.

No more. For you haunt me even in that realm
Your mere existence can easily overwhelm
Torturing me with ecstatic bliss
An excruciating place I miss

I’m conflicted, all I want you to say is “I hate you”
Because I hate hearing the buzzing of “I love you”
I hate how for days I can’t get you out from within
Yet, after mere moments, he can get underneath your skin.

I heard it’s impossible to escape a black hole
Or to gamble with the devil to win back your soul
But I shall try and fight till my knuckles bleed crimson
To escape this cruel, agonizing web that you’ve spun